I'm back. I have resigned my job because my kids need me 100 percent. The effects of this decision are multiple. Everyone is happier. The girls are friends, truly sharing. RandMcNally is getting better, with some back sliding. I am more available for my ageing parents...this is awesome. I am so glad I am able to do this.

deep sorrow february 2010

i think i need a new profession. i know too much about how twisted and crazy this world is in politics, retirement, healthcare, and taxes. it makes me crazy sad about the world my kids are going to grow up to. there will be no incentive for excellence, no reward for creativity or dilligence. we will all be working to help those that don't.

maizie died one week ago today. i am shocked at my saddness and it makes me think of how bad the kids must feel. i posted the event on facebook and only one "friend" responded. this makes me feel most isolated and alone. no body reads what i post. even my sister said: oh i don't read other people's posts" and she constantly updates her site. strange.

i am so down. i should be fine. i am making good money at a job i love, doing good works and feeling appreciated. my children are healthy and working hard and succeeding. but..

should i start this again?